Playing my cards right ?

Am I lost .. or rather stuck?
I don't know where I am right now in life, what's expected of me, what am I to do.. What makes me happy. It's like I'm lost inside a forest or stuck inside a maze, but this maze is rather different, it's one where I never saw where it ended. For how long am I going to be stuck in a maze? Or is life a maze, in which there are the clear paths and sometimes, naughty knots, which might take very long to find the way out. This is not the time to play games though .. 

It's all about playing your cards right, after all, isn't it?

I guess so. But that means, taking away other people's cards, cheating, mostly - thinking only of yourself. Finding those Jokers we all need. Does that mean connecting with the wrong people? Just for your own benefit - and them throwing them away cause you found the king? A joker is a fake .. isn't it? When you think about it, he is. PLAYING MY CARDS RIGHT. Interesting, how they thought of that sentence, whoever it was that thought of it. Shall I play my cards right? Why, I already said, life isn't a board, and this is no time for games. 

But IS life a game?

Sometimes It is .. sometimes it isn't, right? When you're bored it's a game. When your not up for action or drama, you try to make it an equation. To make it perfect with a perfect solution. 

Y= Mx + B

Solve for LIFE. 

But that doesn't work, does it?

Cause there is always more than one answer, more than one solution, or none at all.

There is NEVER a constant number in life. No way we could find a slope.

Life is the equation mathematicians didn't solve yet, the mixture chemists didn't mix yet, the chapter authors didn't write yet. -You can't write it until you're dead, isn't that it? But when you're dead you can't write. Life is pretty useless, considering these facts. Pretty DAMN useless. Why do we live? It is quite dull... yet the best experience we'll ever have. Why learn from our mistakes, get nervous, be scared, fall in love, when we'll all die either way? That's why I want to believe in those who are immortal, even though they might not exist. I want to think that there is at least something that never dies. EVERYTHING (That I know of) DIES; People, Animals, Roses, Flames, Friendships, Hatred and Love. They all die out, and fade away .. Quite depressing. Why is life something we all want to have forever? We do we ALL want to become immortal? Some say they're not afraid of death .. but that's just cause they haven't been there yet. EVERYBODY [With no exception whatsoever] is afraid of the unknown. Now If you know what death is, I'll let you not be afraid. { Otherwise, shut up. } I mean, what would we protect ourselves from, if not death? After all, everything is compared to DEATH, death being, of course, the bad thing. It IS the one thing that frightens everyone. The first human was scared of death and set us all that way. If you aren't scared of it, you're either Immortal, a ghost, or don't belong to this planet. Sorry, vampires, you know I love you (WITH ALL MY HEART).

Life is priceless and pointless, and yet I love it, I long for the rest of it. And I hate it. All at once.